I'm Still Alive

I haven't been able to post much lately, because there's really not much to update you about!

This pregnancy is so far beyond different from my last one, that it's actually freaking me out.

My last pregnancy was so horrible I actually contemplated ever getting pregnant again. I had morning sickness from week seven, clear up through week 17. I only gained two pounds in my first trimester, and by the end of second trimester I had gained 12. Week 18 it was confirmed that my son would be born with Spina Bifida. For those who have never had to endure the news of your baby having a birth defect, it's a feeling like no other. It's mourning the child you thought you would have, but celebrating the amazingly complicated life that you're about to embark on. It's an emotional rollercoaster.
My third trimester, my son was up in my ribs the entire time. He was breach until he was delivered! Having an eight pound breach baby in your uterus is extremely painful. My ribs eventually began to bow out because there was just no room for him! Towards the very end of my pregnancy I became very swollen and borderline preeclampsia.
Not to mention the painful recovery, which put the cherry on top of my not wanting to have another child for a long time.


This pregnancy, I have had nothing, no symptoms to speak of for the last almost four weeks. For the first two weeks I was cramping a lot, and had sore breasts. I thought for sure I would get morning sickness. I was trying not to celebrate the fact that I hadn't had it yet. But I'm going to be nine weeks tomorrow, and I get a slight bought of nausea here and there if I smell something rank, but other than that if I didn't know I was pregnant, I would have absolutely no idea!
Now all I can do is sit and wait for my first actual prenatal appointment on May 27th, which seems forever away! At least I am in the same month now, though.
And hey, I'm in my third month of pregnancy! I like saying that better than counting down weeks. Maybe that will make it go by quicker?
Until next update.... :)