Thursday, May 28, 2015

We can breathe... I think!

Yesterday I had my official first prenatal visit with my OB/GYN, which I wasn't even sure I was going to be able to go to! My insurance changed my assigned clinic, and after much freaking out and cursing out the customer service representative on the phone, I found out that my OB/GYN is actually covered under both clinics! Such a relief. I don't do well with change, especially when it comes to doctors!
After taking a quick peek at the baby, my doctor brought up VBAC to me again to make sure that was still our game plan... so after talking about it and signing the consent form, it will be official! She said I couldn't be a more perfect candidate. I am so excited to have such a supportive doctor!

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Today, I went into my sequential screen, which included a thorough ultrasound, and a blood test.

To my pleasant surprise, the doctor reading my results was my high risk doctor from my previous pregnancy! I hadn't seen him since before Isaiah's birth, so that was really cool!

After looking over the photos (...DRUM ROLL...), he said that everything looks normal and we don't have to worry about Spina Bifida!!!

He wants to confirm everything early, so I am also getting an early anatomy scan, which means we will find out if this little bean is a boy or a girl in about a month!
Now that first trimester is over, things are starting to move along much quicker!

And I think I can take a sigh of relief!

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Doing it Alone

Nothing makes me happier than being able to stay at home during the week with my son, and that my husband is able to provide for us. But selfishly I am sad that my husband will miss out on my first ultrasound. We tried hard to make this baby together.
At first he was going to be able to go, and then he got called to a job that no one else in his company can do. So I'll be dropping my son off with a sitter, and going in by myself.
My worst fear is that something will go wrong, and I'll be there to go through it by myself.
Now that my appointment is officially less than a day away, my anxiety is getting the best of me.

I am excited, sad, happy, anxious, nervous, all in one.
I guess I just can't wait for the appointment to just... be here already!

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

First Flutters

Tonight I officially felt the baby moving for the first time!
It's an indescribable feeling, and such a wave of relief came over me.

I drank some super sweet hot cocoa in preparation for the nasty cold that is about to consume my body. I thought I was feeling gas bubbles, but it kept on being in the same spot over and over again.

This is so exciting and relieving for me! I really can't explain how much stress this is lifting off of me. It has felt like an eternity waiting for my first prenatal appointment to make sure my baby is okay, and this certainly makes the waiting much easier.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Single Digits Now, Guys!

I'm now only nine days away from my first REAL prenatal appointment, and ten days from my sequential screen which will tell me if my unborn child has an open neural tube defect like my son.

I have not had a single bout of sickness, although my pregnancy supersmell game is pro.

I've been staying super busy with Isaiah's appointments this month. A lot of annual stuff, and some checkups.
And yet, I still feel bored, so I felt the need to pick up an internship at a local real estate office. Go me!

I will be 11 weeks tomorrow, but I still feel like I'm not quite out of the woods of morning sickness yet. I don't want to be too grateful too soon and regret it later. But I am so happy I have felt this good so far.

I will hopefully write a longer update next week after my exciting appointments, and perhaps I will put up photos of my little bean!

Thank you all for following and supporting me on this journey!

Monday, May 4, 2015

I'm Still Alive

I haven't been able to post much lately, because there's really not much to update you about!

This pregnancy is so far beyond different from my last one, that it's actually freaking me out.

My last pregnancy was so horrible I actually contemplated ever getting pregnant again. I had morning sickness from week seven, clear up through week 17. I only gained two pounds in my first trimester, and by the end of second trimester I had gained 12. Week 18 it was confirmed that my son would be born with Spina Bifida. For those who have never had to endure the news of your baby having a birth defect, it's a feeling like no other. It's mourning the child you thought you would have, but celebrating the amazingly complicated life that you're about to embark on. It's an emotional rollercoaster.
My third trimester, my son was up in my ribs the entire time. He was breach until he was delivered! Having an eight pound breach baby in your uterus is extremely painful. My ribs eventually began to bow out because there was just no room for him! Towards the very end of my pregnancy I became very swollen and borderline preeclampsia.
Not to mention the painful recovery, which put the cherry on top of my not wanting to have another child for a long time.


This pregnancy, I have had nothing, no symptoms to speak of for the last almost four weeks. For the first two weeks I was cramping a lot, and had sore breasts. I thought for sure I would get morning sickness. I was trying not to celebrate the fact that I hadn't had it yet. But I'm going to be nine weeks tomorrow, and I get a slight bought of nausea here and there if I smell something rank, but other than that if I didn't know I was pregnant, I would have absolutely no idea!
Now all I can do is sit and wait for my first actual prenatal appointment on May 27th, which seems forever away! At least I am in the same month now, though.
And hey, I'm in my third month of pregnancy! I like saying that better than counting down weeks. Maybe that will make it go by quicker?
Until next update.... :)